The Empty Chair

September 25, 2009 parkis2

Today was 7 months. Seven months ago that my Rodney died. I miss him so…

Every night as I watch TV or read, his chair, now empty stares at me. I look over to share something with him and he is not there. I forget. Seven months and I forget.

Life is so different. Not bad, just different. Home is different; time with my children is different; church (especially church) is different; and work is different. He does not meet me at Sonny’s on Friday for lunch.

What will my children think if I get rid of his chair? Ah…”get rid” of. It seems awful to send his comfy chair away. But here it is empty and useless. Somewhere else it will be coveted and loved. I didn’t feel so terrible sending other things away, but I find I simply cannot look at the empty seat anymore.

I send it over to a neighbor who wants it. I know he will rest in it, find calm amidst a stormy day in it, and probably, like Rod, sleep in it.

The chair is gone. The empty space is still there.

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1. Pam Prow | October 2, 2009 at 1:58 am

You are doing so great. I am so proud of you and all that you have accomplished in such a short time. I know you miss him but you are definitely moving towards your new life that God has planned for you. Know that you are loved.

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2. Claire | October 2, 2009 at 10:12 pm

Tear, tear. =(
From me & Barry. We love you Paula.

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3. angel | October 4, 2009 at 7:36 am

Dear,
Hi Judith here….Assure you my prayers..you are a wonderful strong woman….and God’s alwys with you…I admire you.

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