…and the beat goes on

October 31, 2009 parkis2

Even when you think it can’t possibly, life really does go on. It has now been eight months since my husband died. There seems to be this part of me that still believes he’ll come back and then there’s the knowledge that he won’t. But I AM ASSURRED that I will see him again. Just not on this earth.

Each new day I start over. Get up, get moving, get on with it. Sometimes I wonder “get on with what?,” but I know. Even when I don’t want to admit it, I know. Get on with LIFE.

One of my favorite quotes is, “Every new begining comes from some other new beginnings end.” I remember my new beginning with Rodney. I was mortified to re-marry. But I knew it was right and forged ahead. It was a new beginning after eight years as a single woman. And now that new beginning has ended and at almost 64 I begin again. To exactly what, I’m not sure, but the One Who Counts knows. The Lord has my days numbered…it’s just not my turn to go yet.

My Gainesville daughter (Rebekah) is home for a short week-end. It makes life seem almost normal having someone around who really cares. And my Marine daugher comes home November 17th. Things will REALLY seem almost back to normal then.

Once they both go back to their own lives and it’s once again just me and the cats, I will slip back into my new normal world. It’s not a bad new normal. Just not the one I prefer. However, the Lord isn’t done with me yet….and the beat goes on.